What the *hell* is my problem?
I get this great guy like Jonothan, who is talented, handsome (ok, more on that in a sec), passionate and makes my insides go silly when I feel him speak in my head.
Then there is Warren, who is beautiful, older and for some reason, seems to want to be with me.
And Jono just spoke to me about us. He told me he really likes me. And I agreed that we do have something that has potential to be awfully special. Gawd, I love his eyes, they are full of expression, perhaps because he lacks a real mouth (which wasn’t a big deal until I kissed Warren). I want to be with him, but I feel that by saying 'yes' I've committed to something I'm not ready for.
And then Warren tempts me, by, gawd, just being there. Why does this have to be so hard? Why couldn't have that one night we were flying been a reckless bit of senses and he got over it? Why didn't I leave his room? Oh gawd, Brian knows something, he has to. Of course, with the way he's been hitting that dope, he may have just forgotten it.
Still, when I'm with Jono, I feel that us, our music, are the only things that exist, that are worthwhile. And I know, down inside, he is the one I'd rather be with.
So, what's the problem then?